hello, from the working side

So I'm back at work this weekend. My shift is all day and I don't know how I'll cope not seeing my baby all day for the first time in 8 months. Don't get me wrong it will be nice to be back on my feet and getting out the house but I didn't realise how hard it would feel not being there. I'm going to sort out set shifts every week so I know where I stand with noahs nursery. How do women do this. I dint want to be a housewife, cleaning and cooking, waiting for my husband to get home but I can now see why some women prefer to do that.  My mum worked hard when we were younger so why shouldn't I.

Also I'm on a new diet. No bread, sugar, and limited cards. So basically I've eaten fish and veg most the week. Now, I'm addicted to Pepsi max buy I haven't had a bottle all week. Hopefully I can slim down a bit. I'll be tracking my progress on here.
Thanks for reading guys x

the real reality

Shows like 16 and pregnant and teen moms are infamous. We have watched the stars grow up, watched their children grow up. But here's the thing. That's not a completely realistic picture. Sometimes there's not all that drama. Sometimes it's not as easy as it's seems. Pregnancy and parenthood isn't as glamorous as it's portrayed. These girls have made some serious money doing this show and other projects (*cough cough* sex tape ). I'm not a fan of one of the girls on the original series. But one girl, caitlyn, she's the most realistic. She has had the most to go through. Not all teen moms keep their children. She's also shown to have suffered post natal depression. She should be admired for her courage. I'm sure the girls would not tell girls that being a teen parent is the best path but if it happens your choices will affect you. I wasn't a teen when I had my son. But I was only a year off. I'm still young with a lot to learn. The likes of farrah who gives her child $900 for a tooth, I mean come on. I don't even earn that in two months. That's unrealistic and we've all seen how her child acts. I'm not critiquing her parenting as she has her own way. But I know that even if I won the lottery, I would still work a few days a week and show my son that you have to work for the things you want. Not everyone can get pregnant young and become a household name. They are mostly just like us. But they have added drama from a show. Not all of us will split from our partners. Dont wish for what they have
 Everyone's journey is different. Embrace yours.

new year changes

I only have just over 2 weeks left of my maternity leave. I'm on the fence on how I'm feeling. In a way I can't wait as it means I'm not stuck at home and can keep busy but I know it's going to be so hard to leave noah for the day. I'm only back for 3 days a week but it's going to be so strange. The good news is that I turned 21 whilst I've been off so I get a slight pay rise as well. Had to go and buy new uniform as mine was maternity and too big now.
It's been a while since I had the time to write so there's a lot happening. Noah slept so well while we were away but we got back and he's back to normal. Although he's so much better with his food now. He will have the whole bowl and still want more. He's up to 17lb 2oz which means he's back in track. We have a playdate with some of our friends this week at a messy play. Cant wait for him to get all dirty and painted. He's better at socialising now and doesn't cry at the noise of other babies.
My new years resolution is to lose some weight. I'm very self conscious about my size and I'm hoping being out the house and back at work means I don't have time to sit and eat junk all the time. My biggest vice has to be Pepsi . I could drink it all day but I need to change. I've also started to make more of an effort with my makeup. Let's hope this year is the best year yet.
HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS. thank you from reading my blog. Here's to an amazing 2016  x

the aftermath of Christmas.

Not had a chance to post over the last few days. Had such an amazing Christmas with my family. Noah was spoilt rotten. Cant believe how different Christmas feels as a parent. We are now at dans parents house. Dan got a new Xbox so I'll never see him again. Cant wait to go shopping and treat myself. I love the aftermath of Christmas because all you do is relax and use all your new goodies. Noah has come down with a cold so he's not been sleeping great again. Not slept properly in about a week. We had to laugh on Christmas day as by the time everyone else had opened their presents, me and Dan hadn't even touched ours and we're still opened noahs. It's strange sitting down at the dinner table from the first time feeling your son Christmas day. Although the day was twinges with sadness, with it being the first without my grandad, it was still one of my favourite Christmases I've ever had. Hope you all had an amazing day.

you know best

Now if you have ever had a baby, you'll know that health visitors have a lot of do's and don't's.  Your not supposed to have baby in bed with you. Your not supposed to give them food till after 5 months. As a first time mum all this advice can be a godsend. But honestly.... follow your instincts. It's very rare I'll go against advice given to me but sometimes, mummy knows best. I knew my little boy wasn't feeling full after milk at 4 and a half months so I tried him with some baby porridge. It hasn't harmed him in any way. Noah struggled to put on weight after he was born and the Hv told me to see a doctor to make sure he was healthy. This was just before I started giving him food. After that his weight gain got so much better.
It's very rare I'll let him sleep in bed with me but at the moment, with his lack of sleep due to teething, it's the only way to get him to go to sleep and stay asleep. I'll try not to but there comes a point where your too tired to fight it. I take all the necessary precautions e.g pillows by the side, plenty of room between him and me, plenty of room between him and the edge. Luckily I have a big enough bed and my husband will sometimes sleep elsewhere (he has work quite early and doesn't want to wake noah up). I'm not saying that the Hv is wrong but sometimes your instincts will kick in and you know what to do. However I do suggest refraining from letting baby sleep in your bed constantly. Your just making a rod for your own back. Sometimes if there's nothing wrong with your baby, letting them have a little cry doesn't hurt. Noah will sometimes fight his sleep but once he realises he's actually tired, he'll go down a lot easier.
No mum is perfect, but we have these instincts built into us. Don't be afraid to use them.

first cut is the hardest.

So Noah cuts his first tooth today and I think that's why he's not been sleeping too well. Only just feel it but my God it's sharp. No wonder he's screaming, I think I would. I've had to stop writing this a couple of times to calm him down. Strange to think that everyone had this feeling at one time in their lives. Makes me see how big he's getting. He's pulling on my fingers as well, trying to stand up. He's also doing this funny nose where he laughs through his nose. We've been trying to put him in a door bouncer and Walker but he either stands still or walks around in a circle.
Only three more sleeps until Christmas. Feeling so excited. Hope your all enjoying the countdown.

Can santa bring me a silent night!

So Noah is 7 months and we've never had him sleep through the night. I can't remember what it's like to sleep like a regular person. Most of my friends have been saying how great their kids are at night and sleeping through for 8 hours. What's wrong with my child. Going to try some techniques to get him to sleep longer before I go crazy. Last night was horrendous. I had about 4 hours altogether and then he has kept nap time to a minimum.  He gets so miserable and claws at my face it pulls my hair .
I used to hate hearing kids having tantrums on buses or in the street, but now I give them a look of knowing and understanding.

 I finally feel like a mother.